About all I've been through, I wish I was dreaming
Man, it's hard to be an angel when you surrounded by demons
I watched so many people leave
I see 'em change by the season, that's mama's sеasoning
God got you, the devil's watching, he just peeking in
I know I madе a promise that I'd never let the reaper in
But lately, I've been losin' all my deepest friends
And lately, I've been swimmin' on the deepest end
It's just drugs, it ain't no hugs, it ain't no love there
You been down so much you don't even know what's upstairs
Suicidal thoughts got you wonderin' what's up there

And if I talk to Christ, can I bring my mother back to life?
And if I die tonight, will I see her in the afterlife?
But back to reality, where everything's a tragedy." - Meaning and context.">

Jesus Lord
“

Sittin' by myself, I'm just thinking
About all I've been through, I wish I was dreaming
Man, it's hard to be an angel when you surrounded by demons
I watched so many people leave
I see 'em change by the season, that's mama's sеasoning
God got you, the devil's watching, he just peeking in
I know I madе a promise that I'd never let the reaper in
But lately, I've been losin' all my deepest friends
And lately, I've been swimmin' on the deepest end
It's just drugs, it ain't no hugs, it ain't no love there
You been down so much you don't even know what's upstairs
Suicidal thoughts got you wonderin' what's up there

And if I talk to Christ, can I bring my mother back to life?
And if I die tonight, will I see her in the afterlife?
But back to reality, where everything's a tragedy.

— Kanye West

What It Means

This is a placeholder explanation generated by the low-overhead model. It interprets "Sittin' by myself, I'm just thinking
About all I've been through, I wish I was dreaming
Man, it's hard to be an angel when you surrounded by demons
I watched so many people leave
I see 'em change by the season, that's mama's sеasoning
God got you, the devil's watching, he just peeking in
I know I madе a promise that I'd never let the reaper in
But lately, I've been losin' all my deepest friends
And lately, I've been swimmin' on the deepest end
It's just drugs, it ain't no hugs, it ain't no love there
You been down so much you don't even know what's upstairs
Suicidal thoughts got you wonderin' what's up there

And if I talk to Christ, can I bring my mother back to life?
And if I die tonight, will I see her in the afterlife?
But back to reality, where everything's a tragedy." in the context of "Jesus Lord" to mean that wisdom is timeless.

Source: Wikiquote: "Kanye West" (Lyrics: All songs produced by Kanye West, except as indicated., Donda (2021)) The 'What it means' explanation text was generated by Google Gemini Flash (accessed February 03, 2026). https://gemini.google.com/app

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About Kanye West

Ye (born Kanye Omari West; June 8, 1977) is an American rapper, singer, songwriter, record producer, fashion designer, and entrepreneur based in Chicago, Illinois. One of the world's best-selling music artists, with over 160 million records sold, West has won 24 Grammy Awards, the joint tenth-most of all time, and the joint-most Grammy awards of any rapper along with Jay-Z. He is frequently lauded as one of hip hop's greatest artists. Six of West's albums were included on Rolling Stones 2020 500 Greatest Albums of All Time list with the same publication naming him one of the 100 Greatest Songwriters of All Time. He holds the joint record (with Bob Dylan) for most albums (4) topping the annual Pazz & Jop critic poll, and has the 5th most appearances on the Billboard Hot 100 (133 entries). Time magazine named him one of the 100 most influential people in the world in 2005 and 2015. Ye is a self-proclaimed Nazi and admirer of Adolf Hitler.